Enter: Kazumi Taisho

AH school just started and I already wish it was over. Yeah its already that bad. So much drama and so little patience to put up with it MUAH AH HAHAHAHA!!!

Anyways, I was just thinking about how much i never blog so here I am blogging. So my college class is fun but it is already kicking my bootie lol, but seriously the whole having to contact your teacer through email thing is confuzzling. Oh and I'm on page thrity in my book for...MYSELF...I haven't come up with a title yet, but its coming along beautifully I think. Blythe is trying to kill me so she can get her hands on my book, but I have to keep hiding it so it stays a surprise until christmas. I was thinking about my writing earlier....see Aunt Stacey sent me a email about this 16 year old girl who just published her first book. I'm amazed at her talent, lol i wish i had the guts, but i don't bother, besides my writing is soley for one person. The publishing of one of books would be pointless :) Though i am trying to get it printed out all pretty for my sisters. anyways though i finally finished the picture that is going to be used for the cover of Blythe's book which is always exciting.

Oh and here's my schedule

1. Band (its okish....band nerd lol)

2. Peer Tutoring (i'm the tutor)

3. Dual Credit English (college)

4. History (WITH MR. JARRETT ITS ROCK AWESOME!)

5. Spanish III (ugh wish it was Japanese)

6. Physics (boring)

7. Algebra II (no comment)

8. Athletics (HECK YES!!!)

Its pretty boring mostly, but i can handle it I hope.

INUYASHA THE FINAL ACT IS OUT AND I WATCHED THE FIRST THREE EPISODES!!!!! AHHHH SESSHOMARU IS AWESOME!!!!! AH the joy InuYasha brings me!!! The anime world is so cool you should try it sometime!!!

Yeah Yeah so let's see what else is going on in my life...oh oh oh i am learning Japanese on my own time. Its really fun and i enjoy it so much more than stupid spanish!!! I guess its just really cool when your sister is learning it too so you can have super secret convos and no one knows what you're talking about which is like super spy fun!!! BTW did you know that the african avocado is orange and tastes just like peanut butter? WELL YOU DO NOW!!!!

But anyways my life is pretty idk neutralish right now i have a routine seriously a routine! But i can't complain its pretty relaxing.

So thats pretty much it so i'll just blog some other time peace out oh and BTW that picture up above is the cover page for Blythe's Book...i'm getting Kaley's finished soon (hopefully)

Ja Ne, (later)

Kelsey

Mondays...I like them

MONDAY!

It's monday today! AHAHAHAHA anyways...Today was one of those just all around great days!It was one of the "Ha what now...I feel great!" Moments in life. In one word i can summarize...awesomesauceness! It had a few embarrassing moments, but just all together fun.

Let's see i was in first period and we watched our band thing. Mr. Hartman pretty much told us that we were great and he sees us going to state which would be beyond amazing! Then in Second period (my pals class) I walked into Mrs. Heathington's class to have a group of rabid fourth graders attack me with candy apples. I was excited oh yes i was. In fact i nearly stole some to take with me, but they had already made me one complete with the caramel, and the chocolate and colored sprinkles and peanuts plus a bag of candy corn. (I didn't have the heart to tell the excited faces that i find all those together gross.) I managed to eat it and in all honesty i was happy to know that all my little pals remember me when they do little crafts. I get at least one drawing or card a week. (They are all in my locker) I find them all adorable and sweet. Third period was the beginning of the embarrassing moment. I walked in all excited still eating my monster candy apple feeling pretty good at the moment and then i realized that i had left my english in my locker. So naturally i walked out of the room and grabbed it (its college lol you can do that!) When i walked back in and slipped on my bell bottoms (see mom boho is dangerous). I smashed into the table managing to hit my elbow and in an attempt to catch my self i fell and slammed my knee into the tile. I cried out a little you know in surprise and looked up to see everyone laughing. HA! I get the last laugh because i laughed to. Anyways i stood and finished the rest of class accident free. Fourth period rolled around and we had to creat a hostile take over of the world. THAT WAS AWESOME! My group decided that Micaela would be in control of the military in general "Generalissimo" I would be in control of the airforce "AirForce 1" Chris would control the Army and be "Crouching Tiger in the grasses" (because he's asian haha jk) and his brother Jake would be in charge of the navy "Hidden Dragon in the water" Then Josephine would take control over the world and be "Dark Over Lord" It was so fun lol just being random like that. Fifth Period...the embarrasment continued. Mrs. Martinez had seen me fall and made me write out an accident report about my fall to ensure that later if i had seriously hurt myself the school would be liable. Sixth period was just a lazy day so Sam and i just sat around and talked to each other. Seventh period Andy and i worked together and talked about his ex and my arch enemy ahahahahaha Jkjk but seriously it was fun. Then eigth period rolled around signifying the end of the day and athletics, which was super easy ahahahaha.

Then after school i sat around on youtube till dad said that mam wanted us to meet her in Hawley for dinner so i packed up and chased after him diving into the car just before he felt the need to leave (which he has done before) We rocked out to rock 108...and yes we did rock out. For those of you who don't know my dad is a metallica fan and i love driving with him when its just us because we listen to music that we both like so it ends up being awesome! I've come to the conclusion that he tones it down when mama is around. Anyways i'm rambling. Ok so we get to Hawley and mama meets us at the playground with the most delicious potato salad and venison. I loved it it was great! Not only did we get to hang out together and eat we were at the playground so Isabel and I swung and ran around with Ella-Sophie. It was pretty fun and for once i just kinda hung out and had fun which is strange haha jk jk.

Mostly though it was just a great monday which was all around strange and i loved it! I found it fun and enjoyable...i shall look forward to more days like this especially since we never see each other during the week...it gets boring.

Anyways hope you had a fabulous monday!

Urges to Scream

"I tell myself no...but its so hard to keep silent...so hard."

ok here we go! Apparently i need therapy or something because i really am getting the urge to break something just to watch it shatter! Is that bad? Teme-Chan says its not...but Daddy C says i have anger management problems and mama threatened to put me into therapy. I guess it might be helpful. But i just don't feel like it! And Teme-Chans biological father called me stupid through facebook that disgusting jerk-face! He says he's got beef...well i'm a vegetarian and i ain't even scared of him!

Let's see here besides that i'm sitting around listening to the whole family talk. It reminds me how much i truly miss the peace and quiet that comes from just sitting in my room and messing around on photobucket listening to my music. I've learned that japanese styled music is sooo much more fun to listen to. And yes i do know what they are saying so ha! (I cannot stand it when people are like "you don't even know what they are saying!") I feel like writing, but i can never seem to write whenever i don't have some sort of music playing. Teme-Chan says its because i get my ideas from the music. I partially agree. I think the tone of the music i listen to describes the tone of my writing at the time. Which makes sense.

But anyways...i have decided to change my style yet again...go figure. I'm just trying to find who i am and how i like to dress. The hippie style really just doesn't compliment me. Mama says it does but i just don't think it defines who i am. But i don't want to look goth. I just love the school girl outfit with the pleated skirt and tie. Again Daddy J and mama say that it looks like a hookers outfit. Which hurts i won't lie. I really want a bunch of them so i can be like "YAY!" But besides that i kinda like the skinny jean look.

Anyways.......I'm pretty much out of stuff to say. I really have been leading an uneventful life. Which bores me but hey. Got a one at the band competition...thats good. And softball practice starts soon...also good. and only ten weeks until christmas..also good.

OH WAIT AHAHAHAHAHA!!!! INUYASHA THE FINAL ACT CAME OUT!!!!! THANK GOODNESS!!! ITS AMAZING!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!





I posted for the first time in like EVER! Reason? UHHHHH i don't have one. Actually i'm just sitting here being bored while i wait for one of my friends to send me the pic she drew for the cover of my sisters book!





Ah...life is ok...ish. I got asked out (i said no), I learned new flute music, managed to run three miles in athletics today, and finally figured out how to doo triple elimination in Algebra II HA 90 on the test! Can i get a whoop whoop!!!





School...yes lets talk about school. Its kinda boring. I go to band, hang out with my little ones, speak in spanish, check my email, debate, lots of math, run and lift....then come to the com[puter lab after school and search for music to play on my flute. Its kinda like i have a routine...a messed up routine but a routine. AND!!!! I've finally restarted my Japanese Lessons. Its about time i was getting lonely without talking to the computer like i did in Georgia. Granted its not as fun without Kaley screaming, "I ALREADY SAID GOOD MORNING YOU STUPID COMPUTER DON'T MAKE ME SAY IT AGAIN!" Bahahaha good times. Anyways the flu struck our house...yuck! But I Kelsey (hehe third person speech...i love it!), managed to remain unscathed thanks to my super power called Immunity!





OHHHHH that reminds me...third person lol INUYASHA CAME BACK OUT!!!! WOOHOOO ITS AWESOME SAUCE AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THEY ARE SAYING!!! Wow...i'm such a loser. Oh well i prefer it to anything else i have going on right now. Lets see i have a to-do list before christmas...





1.) finish third book


2.) type up other two


3.) get them bound


4.) get one to Kaley in time for christmas


5.) go christmas shopping!!!





Yeah uh...i'm just rambling now...so i shall get going oh wait before i go check out the picture my friend drew of me! Its amazing!!! A thousand hugs and kisses to Ashley my forever friend and ally (ha Lord of the Rings)





(AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i love it)

*AHEM*

And here's Kelsey with her first week of school status report...are you ready this is big ok here goes



*ahem* I HATE HIGHSCHOOL!!! this has been a public service announcement.

anyways...thats really all i have to say except i have to drop my history class, and i have to find a high school musical costume by tomorrow

The Ramblings of Me

AHHHHHH!!!!! I didn't know that there is an rpg game of InuYasha (for those of you who don't know...RPG means role playing game.) And you get to be YOURSELF i stress yourself and join the cast and play the game defeating Naraku and finding the secret of the cursed mask...isn't that just nifty. Anyways mama said i could have it if i finished my chores all week so i'm working really hard on that.

Oh and I finally finished my book. Its about time to!!! Its called Chance to Love. Now that i finished it i just need to hurry and get it typed and bound so i can give it to Blythe for Christmas. The only downer thing about finishing this one is now i need to geet started on the next book for Kaley which is going to be harder than this one because the plot is more complicated...but i am soooo ready to start it. It is going to be great if i can just nail the actual plot completely right.

School starts next monday and I can honestly say that i don't want to. I guess the main thing is i just dislike the actual getting up in the morning and having to go listen to someone ramble on and on about something that you will probably never ever use again such as ALGEBRA!!! But thats besides the point i have to go no matter what so i might as well just get it over with especially since i am almost finished.

ANIME though that is what i really wanted to talk about...you see I am a big fan of anime. It usually doesn't matter what its about i will find something about it that i can enjoy. My favorite though is InuYasha. Its a really really nifty show and i love it. The t.v. series, however, ended before the actual manga was over (for those of you who don't know a manga is a japanese version of a comic book, but with an actual plot worth reading) To say the least i was devastated when i found out, but then i heard that InuYasha is coming back to finish out the series where it left off. INUYASHA: FINAL ACT COMES OUT THIS SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!! Right in time for my sweet sixteen!!! Anyways though my joy for that increased when i heard that a movie is coming out too!!!! So to say the very least i'm so stoked its not even funny. Also Naruto is almost finished which is pretty depressing since i absolutely adore Naruto. The main thing i am upset about is that if Masashi Kishimoto (thats the writer) doesn't put Hinata and Naruto together i will be sending some serious hate mail.

I suppose thats all i have to say since i'm pretty much through talking. LOL my sweet sixteen is next month and i am super stoked for that too so anyways ttyl

Kelsey

OK...so today was Anime Day in Atlanta!!!!! and it was amazing...lol it was sooo fun!!!!! anyways :) so Kaley and I dressed up as Karin Maaka from Chibi Vampire (kaley) and I dressed up as Nanao Ise from Bleach it was cool!!! We all went in there and got to see all these super cool people all dressed up. OH OH OH and I saw Kenshin!!!!! I was freaking out and dove at him literally :) he took a picture with me I felt like such a nerd!!! and there was this adorable little boy dressed as InuYasha and it was positively Adorable lol flat out cute!!! oh and we saw Sagura and he is one of my favs too so i stopped him and got a picture. And since dad likes final fantasy i saw the main character and she posed. But the coolest was definetly when we saw Jiraiya and Naruto, Sasuke, Hinata, Akamaru, Kiba, Itachi, and Tobi all together...I love Naruto so i was freaking out!!!!! Oh and we got to watch a silly cosplay of people from Naruto doing the macerena lol. Oh and I got to take a picture with Tobi who was sooooooo cool!!!!! I am so just babbling, but it was so much fun and i actually lookeed like my character and people recognized me and asked for pics too. Like Sango came up to me and asked for a pic so i did. I was soooo freaking out while we were walking around...it was so cool to see all the costumes especially since most were homemade!!! Anyways I had tons of fun and can't wait to go to another one but I g2g peace :)

oh and if you want to see the rest of the pics they are on my myspace kk?

First week in Georgia

"In my world of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullabies I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me."

Well...this has been a rather boring trip to Georgia. I mean yay lets go swim in the "Creatures of the Deep.," Pool. LOLOLOL...JK its cool i guess...I don't sleep much and I mostly babysit or clean (the bathroom was so nasty I just had to clean it) Anyways thats besides the point...I'm haviong fun mostly. I have been reading alot...mostly anime, but thats besides the point. I really don't have anything to blog about...I nmade peanut butter balls today they were yummy :) I was super stoked. We are selling them to people at Chris and Dad's work so we can make money for Pika Pika...its an anime shop at the mall of georgia. I'm really excited about that. The parents are at work so i have commandeered the computer lol for now anyway. They are super stingy about sharing. Oh well Chris went and bought me a whole bunch of meatless patties and shrimp and things like that so I can still stay the whole pescatarian without having to deal with eating beef. The whole house smells like peanut butter right now...its crazy!!!!!!!!! oh and hi mama i miss and love you muchly :) I miss and love you too daddy!!!!!!!!!! Lets see i'm pretty much out of stuff to talk about so I'm out!!!

Peace...Love...Save the Bees

"This is me...I'm exactly how i'm supposed to be."


So everyone has their own style that makes them well themselves right? I mean my sister is what i call "funky" lol she wears whatever comes to mind and talks in complete random phrases and eats anything in her way. Thats who she is...she's a nerd, but I love her and she just wouldn't be Blythe if she didn't act the way she does. But the style isn't whats important its the person in the style and why they are that certain way. I guess its just the beginning. You start with finding clothes that work for you. I personally love the bohemian hippie meets the aeropostale and hollister junkie. Its me i suppose lol its just what makes me...well me.
That however is the problem. My dad (cesar) is a complete stickler about things going his way...its like I have to be some goth emo. I'm being entirely serious here no lie. Look i'll show you. I have recently become a vegetarian, for several reasons. One because it's healthier, two because i prefer veggies and fruits anyway, and three because honestly those slaughter films everyone watches in ag are enough to turn anyone into a veggie *gag*.
Dad though just can't see it my way, he insists on looking at me as a freak and making me feel like a complete idiot. I mean i love my dad, but somtimes he just refuses to budge and change is a way of life whether he likes it or not. Anyways back to my Hippieness. I have always been a sort of animal lover and into the "save the bees" (long story) I love to be apart of these sort of things, so wearing recylced clothes and washing my hair with biodegradable products and styling my hair with all natural creams shouldn't be strange. And even though i don't shave as much as everyone else doesn't mean i'm any less clean. Once again its a "you're not doind this my way" thing and he doesn't like it. Ask anyone I know and am close to, they will tell you i have always been into the whole natural thing. Hot topic isn't my style and though i tried to work it it just didn't click with me. My sister Kaley though loves the stlye, so i suppose thats where dad gets the whole Kelsey must be emo thing!!!


Once again who I am is who I want to be and if people don't understand, how is that my fault? I guess they are just going to have to get used to the fact that I'm Me, I'm Kelsey Elisabeth the vegetarian bohemian aeropostale junkie who wants to save the bees from the evil cell phone waves that confuse their little bee brains...AND I'M PROUD OF THAT!!!!!!!!!

Peace, Love, Save the Bees,
Kelsey

Ready...Set...Won't Go

"You never ready for what you have to do...you just do it and that in itself makes you ready."

Yeah nifty quote right? It's true actually and it's quite sad. No one is ever really ready for what is going to be thrown there way yet they still have to go through their life and do it. I guess that's why they say life isn't a rehearsal. Lately I've been having tons of stuff thrown at me and it's insane. But i'm finally getting it all under control...there's just one problem. MY MOM AND DAD!!! Don't get me wrong I love my parents and I respect, appreciate, and adore them. However they just are really over-protective. I mean I can't go to Prom because they think i'm not ready...FOR PROM! Yeah I'm whining sorry...I just don't get it. Honestly I don't see the harm in me going to a dance. She is however firm in her decision so thats a no go.

Partially though it's my friends...she doesn't think they are good for me and all that. She just doesn't get that they are my only option. Besides E.D. I mean I can't exactly just ditch them. I have a settling attitude is what she says. That or my parents think i'm better than I am which i think is the thing. I mean i know i'm not ugly...but i'm not exactly "America's Next Top Model" either. They act like i'm a child prodigy and no one is good enough. they really just need to understand that I'm not the best, and i'm really not that great. I don't have the shine or sparkle or glammor or anything that it takes to be considered worth something in today's world. Most people would be all depressed about it, but i'm content with being who I am even if it means not getting the hot new guy, or not running the fastes, or being the smartest, or the skinniest or anything like that. I am good enough for my friends and that's good enough for me. They aren't bringing me down or anything...if anything they are lifting me up the social ladder so i go from being total social trash to being at the least a social reject. I probably sound pretty pathetic, but believe it or not i'm completely satisfied with who I am.

Like I said earlier you're never ready for what you need to do. People need to realize that no matter how much sheltering you do, or how many defenses you put up...life is gonna slap you in your face. Maybe i'm not ready for prom, maybe i am emotionally fragile, but i'm not just gonna sit here twiddling my thumbs waiting for the moment when i am ready for anything. Which in actuality that moment will never come! I guess I just want my chance to get out there and live my life, but I still want to cling to my mother and hug my daddy...there will be a moment when I will get out there and not look back, but not today...Today i'm just gonna let them shelter me. So no prom, no boyfriend, no parties Ms. McCurdy! *sniffle* even if I would look drop dead gorgeous in my dress, or on date, but the party thing wouldn't work anyway *smirk* i'm a horrid dancer :p

I guess what i'm trying to say through all my senseless babbling is that in my own way I am ready...but not willing to go.

I'm ready

I'm Set

Won't Go

Keeping Silent

"I want to tell you all, but fear the consequences if i break my silence..."

That's what my blog is about...I guess i'm just sick of stupid people. And I really can't talk to anyone about it. I don't want pity, I want a relief from the crap i get to go through all the time.

I know I'm not perfect in every way nor do I wish to be, but I'm not a total failure either. Speaking out has always been something i'm good at...actually anything that involves my voice so singing, writing, reading it just fits with me. Speaking my mind used to be so easy and I could just say whatever I wanted, because speaking plainly is simple...or used to be. I have kinda been struggling a little more than i let people know, but I have a reason. I don't want pity, i don't want anyone's help, i just want all this crap to end. I'm not very high up in the social ladder and all my "Friends" seem to desert me when i really need them. Recently though I met this really awesome girl. She is really funny and i like to talk to her and hang out, but i'm scared to get attached as her friend, because of how easily people seem to ditch me whenever they find the next best thing. I guess i just seem disposable and recyclable, which i suppose i am. i'm horrible at giving everyone a second, third, fourth, fifth chance, there isn't a limit. You literally can walk all over me and it doesn't matter I will always forgive. I shouldn't, but I do. Thats why with (E.D.) I'm trying not to get to close to her as my friend.

Anyways back to my lovely "Speaking" thing. Ok, when I moved to Anson I was perfectly happy, and stuff was going great. Something went wrong idk what, but something did and my world just sorta shattered. I still have my great, loving awesome home life, but my school life is suffering. I was always outspoken, always the first to let her opinion be known. Now though at school i'm still cowering in fear whenever (that girl) walks by, I still flinch if (Blondie) even glances at me. They took away my voice. Not literally of course, but did enough damage to really mess me up LOL! Don't get me wrong, I haven't changed much...i just am way more withdrawn from people. I don't even talk in half my classes and when i do its because the teacher called on me for an answer. Most of the time though i'm just ignored...and its foreign to me lol. I used to always be talking never ever ceasing :) I just can't seem to find anything to say. I want everything to be normal again. Mostly I want everyone to just leave me alone about it. For people to stop talking about me. My dad thinks i wallow in the drama and I'm like "Yeah dad I love crying all the time really its great." Once again I just keep my mouth shut and my head down, trying to just trudge through my school day, so I can get home to mama and Ella and Isabel and jack.

I don't want any pity...I jst needed to get my feelings out so i can breathe a little and clear my head.

Always & Forever,
Kelsey

Autism Walk

OK so here's the deal...I don't have tons of friends and in fact i'm not very uh *cough* popular much to my younger sisters chagrin, but i try not to let stupid things like that bother me. Yet I seem to always be in a positions where its a social gathering type thing and you need friends to well fit in and have a good time. Once again we are all aware of my sad lacking in the friends department. Especially when I have to go to every event the younger sister goes to *sigh* I suppose i just grin and bear it in public most of the time. Anyways back to the main part of the story er blog...whatever.

Saturday was the walk for Autism and I had to go, which originally wasn't a very big deal. In fact I had wanted to go, but as fate would have it the one person I could actually hang out with and have fun...wasn't going to be able to make it. The original thought that ran through my head was "Oh crap, well I guess I just won't go." Of course Mother-Dearest made certain I got an earful of how ashamed I should be...deserting people when they need me to go and walk. So with her lecturing I ended up going, but I was absolutely sure I would hate it and have no fun.

However even with my lack of social standing I was able to find two girls that i could talk to and have fun with...Micheala and Josefine. Don't get me wrong they are great girls to talk to...I just never even considered them because we really don't ever talk. Yet as I jumped out of the van silently muttering about inequality and unfair treatment, the girls saw me and waved me over. I was cautious at first (I really don't have very many friends that are girls anyway) but they were determined to have a great time and the walk around the zoo ended up being so much fun that my sides began to hurt from laughing so much. The day was actually filled with jokes, animal impersonations, pretending to be different religions, looking at nazis lol and just walking around acting silly and for once not caring what was said or done.

The day turned out to be a great success and i'm really glad i ended up going. Even if it was originally only because mom wanted me to... I suppose I just needed a push into the right direction. In the end i realized...this isn't just about going and having fun or even just walking so you could keep your word. This was about walking for a great cause to search for the cure. I am so thankful I got the chance to help make a difference in something so desperately needed.

It's me...Kelsey

Welcome to the blog!!!!

lol i have been wanting to do this for forever i swear. Anyways that's besides the point! ok here goes...My life is so insane, i can barely stand to be in it. I go to Anson Highschool, where i got my first taste of relationships, gossip, gross cafeteria food, and stupid people. It's amazing really, and not just because of all the stupid stuff i've had to go through just to get to where i am but really because of who all has been there for me! Amber, Alyssa, Sam they all play a huge part in my life now as both my best friends and sisters by heart. Believe me though this hasn't been a basket of roses...or well maybe it has, every rose has it thorn (cheesy right?) and i just had to prick my fingers several times to realize who is worth it and who isn't. Between school, home, and social life i'm surprised i'm not crazy yet. I'm a singer and a band nerd, and a sad sad writer. Going through phases lately and it's kept me on an emotional roller coaster for a very very long time, but now i'm finished with it all and it's time for me to be me and live my dreams for me and nobody else.

SO HERE IT GOES...THE DAILY READINGS OF KELSEY, HER LIFE AND TIMES (lol enjoy!)